Letter to daddy

I'm a type of daughter who cannot say sweet things to people especially to the one I love most, my dad

I cannot express my feeling how much he meant to me and how much I love him more than any guys in this world

So I dedicated this letter to my dad. Hopefully someday, I can show him this letter

and I hope

I'm not too late

Dear daddy,

I used to ignore your presence because I found you are so plain and just concern on your work

everytime I share my stories only to mom, cause she is the one who care most

when I was a child, you like to scold me and usually I scold you back

Cause I thought you never know what is my feeling inside

you only care about your work

I went to a favorite high school in Jakarta

I took the most expensive English course

I had a private teacher to taught me Chinese language

I study overseas

I had three cupboards just for accommodate my clothes

this things suddenly SLAP MY FACE so hard till I realized

me, my sisters and my mom are eat up

your world

your time

your happiness

and yet, you never complain

never regret for what you have done to us

I used to say to my high school friends

how I wish I got cool parents like them

can spend their weekend with their parents

and I used to think, if in one week there are 8 days, 

would you give his time just for one day for me and my sisters?

I spend most of time

complaining

arguing 

with you

why you never understand us?

why you never want to spend your time to hang out with us?

However, as the time passes.

I think, It's me who need to understand you more.

I know you have been very responsible to this family

you provide all your daughters the best one

even you can spend your money to take you around the world

but why you love us so much?

I feel very pain dad,

when you didn't care about your health

I feel so small and useless

I feel that I cant help you much

so, please dad..

can you give me time to make you believe that I can hand you a beautiful world?

PS: I miss you (too)