Grateful for being single :)

I know a lot of single friends

from single since yesterday until single since they were born

One thing I can't understand them

why the hell they really want to get involve in a relationship so freaking bad?

erm. I know, someday. I will have my lifetime partner

but if I can choose to

and if there is no negative perception of an old lady live in a small house alone

I will choose not to have any boyfriend

I fed up to love someone

or to be loved by someone

Let me tell you what will happen in most of love cycle

we fall in love

smile without any reason

become couple

get through sweet moments (fyi, maximal 3months)

arguing

crying

arguing

crying

arguing

crying

arguing

crying

break up

frustration

stress

ex all over the head

sleep

wake up

cry

eat

cry

study

cry

sleep

wake up

cry

*continue yourself*

I have been get through this situation twice.

The first is the worst of all

the second, I thought it will be the last

yet, torn my heart into small pieces

I feel it just such a waste of time

having a relationship

cause you will get hurt

but it doesn't mean that I afraid of getting hurt

I just feel so fucked up when I get involved in love

the hardest part is

to get over someone you loved

you can't control your heart, can you?

why have to force something we can't even control?
"trying to forget someone we love is as hard as 
trying to remember someone we never met"
can you feel how hard is it?
(being exaggerated LOL)

anyway, it takes time

suffering the pain when time leads you away from your ex

Now,

I am so grateful

for being single

and free from love

however,

I still have those memories

which will not fade

I think the only reason people hold onto memories so tight is because memories are the things that don't change; when everybody else does (Marcin. M, 2010)

anyway, this just my personal experience

but I still feel very happy if my friend gets new bf or whatsoever

cause I want them to prove me wrong

that relationship is not about hurting each other

but yet, no one 'slap' my head

and show me what's the beauty of love