another boring post

9th August 2010

10:34 am

My relationship with TH officially over

although it's hard

I can accept it

cause I know

my heart will stop beating

if I'm still with TH

another boring post

Today,

that person (TH) keep stabbing my heart

it's bleeding, friends

Yesterday, 

I saw my dad scream and hit his head

cause he can't breath

I'm so panic

the first person who came into my mind is

TH

He's in Singapore

I call him and ask him whether he can come to Malaysia or not

he said he can

Just want to make sure

TH really care about my feelings and my dad condition

I ask TH not to come

I want to know his answer

Then TH said

"oh r u sure I don't have to come?

Later if I didn't come don't angry with me ya"

Then, I know TH doesn't care

Then I cried

I said

"I really hoping u will be here

can wipe my tears

and can comfort me

but I said like that

so I want you to convince me

u come here because u really care about my dad condition

not because u afraid I will angry"

TH said

"if u can handle ur pain without me

and u can understand me

it's far from singapore to malaysia

I'm very thankful to you

it's better for me not to come

u can comfort yourself

or ask your friends to comfort u"

I can't believe what TH said to me

it's really painful

How come TH doesn't care about my feelings

and he thought I can't understand him

WTF

Friends.

U have to understand woman's feeling

when she said she's ok

she just one someone to look into her eyes

hug her tight

and said

"no, I know you're not"

another painful life with TH

I think it's better for me to kill my heart

so this heart will never feel any pain

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11:43PM

about two hours ago

I almost lose my dad

I don't want to cry

cause I believe my dad will be strong

as he used to be

But when his breathlessness come again

It's very hard for him to survive

he started to slap his face

and try to breath with mouth

Seriously,

I don't wanna cry

But why my tears can't obey my order

somehow

someone whisper my thought

that

everythings will not be alright

Thanks to sprightful nurses in ward 7

Gleneagles Hospital

and Dr.Halmey

can quickly send my father in ICU

now,

he's in ICU

his heart is very weak

so he has to put balloon that can help to pump his heart

when I feel like I almost lose my dad

I can't stop crying like a hungry baby

no matter who's in front of me

I get lost

I really want my dad get over his disease

that's why I decided not to eat meat

until my dad recover

and can go back to Indonesia

I hope it works

and God can answer my pray

Ps: I love u dad, get well soon :'(

my dream

friends

on April this year

2010

for the first time

I know what I really want when I grow up

I wanna build a mental hospital

On 25th April 2010

I saw some horrible pictures

in Kaskus

It tells the condition in Cipayung asylum

damn tragic

I'm very angry with people who did this to them

Although they can't think properly

can't take care of themselves

but hey they still human

and they deserve a better life !

that's why

I wanna build a better future for them

I wanna become a part

to convince them

life is a never ending journey

that we should fight for

I believe I can cure them

I feel that they have get through so much pain

till they can't take it anymore

So they become like that

This is my biggest dream

before build an asylum

I have to work harder

to achieve my dream

and I hope my dream and

your dream

someday will become reality

:)

we have to believe it friends

once again

we will when we believe LOL

Do I have a heart ? (boring post no need to read)

I'm so confused

Have u ever felt

when u have someone

who is so adorable

so kind

gorgeous

patient

like the child of God

but you not really sure

whether u love that person or not?

Maybe you all will think

when u have someone is kind

that's will be enough

well,

I already have it

but I'm not happy yet

I feel something missing 

in my relationship

that person is kind

however that person is not really that into me

I know it

that's why I dare to post my feelings

I know that person won't read my post

eventhough I already told that person to read it

I don't feel any warmth

I love to lie

Maybe when I say I love u

Don't u ever trust me

cause maybe I only love my family

ughh

another boring post from me x(

many things in my mind

mixed like gado gado

I dont have friends to share

or someone who can comfort me

so I think this blog can be my loyal friend

Life is pain!

Friends,

I feel life so pain.

Am I wrong?

I'm sitting next to my superhero

my role model

my inspiration

he's my dad

He suffers A LOT

In the morning a doctor said he can't cure my dad

He got coronary artery disease

chest pain

hardly breathe

Is there any way that he can share his pain?

Buddha said

Life is pain

Yes, it is!

We born

getting marry

old

sick

and die

in order to live our life happily

we have to letting go our desire

But, please .

I'm just 18 years old girl

this is just too much for me

You will SERIOUSLY see me like this if the worst thing happen to my dad

My dad,

He is a workaholic

Do you think it's bad?

Everyday, he has to deal with dusts in the factory

disrespect retailers

and lazy employees

he forces himself too much until he didn't care about his body

He did this just to achieve his noble goal

he wants all his daughters not to be like him

he want us to study overseas

so we can get a better education

and we can work with our brain not with our muscle

When I was 17 years old

my dad came to me and said

dear, don't find a man who is good-looking

cause when both of you getting old

there's nothing you can proud of

all will be same and no longer beauty as the time pass

however,

find a man who has a good-heart

you will proud of it until the end of your day.

Since then, I was very dazzled with his words

and make him as my role model

You must be familiar with this sentence

*People deserve a second chance*

But where is my chance to make him proud of me ?

at least I have to show him all his efforts won't be useless!

I won't ever ever ever letting go my desire

Not until I can make him proud of me

Not until I pay back all his efforts

So friends..

My heart so pain

just by starring my dad with his swollen eyes and painful expression

Do you think I deserve a chance?

I wish my dad will be recover soon

So my readers,

whatever your religion is

I hope you will praying for my dad

cause I believe

A true prayer can shake the heaven

Sabbe Satta Bhavantu Sukhitatta 

Wish all creatures who live in this world will be happy

SADHU SADHU SADHU

Intro ?

Hi folks :)

Indonesian people often said that "Tak kenal maka tak sayang" 

which is mean "you won't love me if I don't know me"

However pls don't think I'm hoping y'all to love me LOL x)

But I don't mind if you do *giggling*

Alrite.

My name is Felicia Regina Tjhang

I'm taking mass-comm in Taylor University College, Malaysia

and I'm majoring advertising in my third semester

I'm the eldest daughter in my family

I have two younger sisters

Devina and Fienka

I love my sisters so much although we often fight coz of silly things.

However as the eldest daughter, 

I try my best to be a role model for my sisters

and it WORKS yeay xD

When I was in high school

I joined debate club and

made quite a lot of achievements

one of my super-Yes achievement is

when I can fly to Singapore

to join a business competition

one of my younger sister, Devina said she really want to be like me

honestly, I'm happy to hear that

at least, I've done a right thing

by holding her hands to the right path

my first younger sister, Devina - a marvelous achiever

Eventhough my second sister haven't get any achievement in her life

But I believe she will

I'm very proud to have her as a sister

She only 14 years old and she's very mature

Readers,

imagine if you're a mother with three daughters

you might be disappointed coz u don't have any son

That's what happen with my parents

I know deep down in their heart

they want a son who can be one of the strength in my family

and be the one that can protect his three sisters

But heyy ! I also can protect my sisters

I promise if there's any man

who can let tears come down from their eyes

they will be SORRY (I'm so fierce rite? lol)

However,
If I were them
I must be grateful
at least we have something to make them proud
Although I can't get a lot of money
and can't affort my dad to go to the finest hospital
But, I believe
someday
when I already finish my college
I will !

*YOU WILL WHEN YOU BELIEVE*

can u see my effort?

Maybe it's hard for me to be something in this world
But, I believe
it's better for me to be something for my parents first

in short,

it's harder for us to named five richest people in the world

than

named five people who support us for all the good things we do.

alright, thanks for spending your time to read my post

have a pleasant day everyone :)

SEE YA !