another boring post

Today,

that person (TH) keep stabbing my heart

it's bleeding, friends

Yesterday, 

I saw my dad scream and hit his head

cause he can't breath

I'm so panic

the first person who came into my mind is

TH

He's in Singapore

I call him and ask him whether he can come to Malaysia or not

he said he can

Just want to make sure

TH really care about my feelings and my dad condition

I ask TH not to come

I want to know his answer

Then TH said

"oh r u sure I don't have to come?

Later if I didn't come don't angry with me ya"

Then, I know TH doesn't care

Then I cried

I said

"I really hoping u will be here

can wipe my tears

and can comfort me

but I said like that

so I want you to convince me

u come here because u really care about my dad condition

not because u afraid I will angry"

TH said

"if u can handle ur pain without me

and u can understand me

it's far from singapore to malaysia

I'm very thankful to you

it's better for me not to come

u can comfort yourself

or ask your friends to comfort u"

I can't believe what TH said to me

it's really painful

How come TH doesn't care about my feelings

and he thought I can't understand him

WTF

Friends.

U have to understand woman's feeling

when she said she's ok

she just one someone to look into her eyes

hug her tight

and said

"no, I know you're not"

another painful life with TH

I think it's better for me to kill my heart

so this heart will never feel any pain