Start from people around you.

Hi readers, 

It's been a while since my last post

Now, back to blog

I want to share something

about a life lesson today

So about few weeks ago,

my university asked communication students including me to participate

in world food day

the main idea is Taylors University promise to pack one million of instant foods 

for people who are dying in hunger in Somalia

What should I do was to collect as much as amount of money

to buy one million of foods

I was so passionate to ask people around me to donate

because this is the least thing I can help

However,

today I am so angry with myself

Here the story goes..

I went to eat alone near my house

I ate mix rice without rice because I am on diet of carbohydrate

10 minutes later

four kids came to the stall and took away their foods

I saw all of them requested for a mountain of rice

with ONE FRIED EGG

they even asked to the shop owner

"how much does it cost if I buy rice with the egg's sauce?"

but the shop owner forced them to take at least one egg

can you imagine that

I feel so sad until now

I got enough money in my pocket to buy them a proper meal

I wanted to help them

but I do not know what was on my mind

until I just kept myself silent

My heart told me to say something

but my brain told me, "you better not, later people will judge you as a show off girl"

When they walked away,

 I am so ashamed with myself

I can asked people around to donate for people who I never seen before

but I cannot help those people who are needed around me

If I could turn back the time

I will ask them to get a proper meal

I think this is the least I can do

it's better than just sit down and get busy with my food

What Albert Einstein said is right

The world is dangerous not because of those who do harm, but because of those who look at it without doing anything

Lessons that I can learn from today:

Follow your heart.

You can start helping out people around you

Start from people in your environment

There is no point if we are so passionate in participating to reduce world's hunger

but we cannot help those who are needed right in front of our eyes

Lesson from a mechanic

Few months back

I watched Jason Statham's movie

called The Mechanic

in this movie

there's one of my most favorite scene

when a guy ask Arthur Bishop (Jason Statham) 

to kill his best friend, Harry McKenna (Donald Sutherland)

because of internal political issue that force him to die

At that night in the parking basement

Harry knew that someone will kill him

but unexpectedly he found out that his own best friend

is the one who assigned to do this dirty job

When Arthur point the gun to him

Harry manage to calm himself down and let his best friend shoot him

before killing him, Arthur asked

Arthur: Why do you let me kill you?

Harry: Because if it's not you, somebody else will.

I really love this line

and this movie really inspire me to forgive people who hurt me

because

being hurt by people is part of our life

what we can do is to forgive them

and think if he/she is not the one who hurts me,

somebody else will.

Well readers, this is only my point of view

how you can twist your feeling

from being sad because of your friend betrayed you

or your partner cheated on you

into a better understanding about life

that will always upside down.

Music is the common language of the world.

This is a light talk between you and me.

I've been watching a Korean drama series called Dream High

I won't elaborate more about the story line

but there is a sentence that I like most

Music is the common language of the world.

It's really true

Have you ever listened to song that you don't know what is the meaning

but yet it engages to your emotional and it affect your feeling?

It often happened to me.

Whenever I listen to a song

with a sad melody

I can automatically be sad

even I don't know the language that they use

Have you ever felt the same way?

the birth of A talking dust

Some loyal readers of by posts

often asked me

Why you name your blog A talking dust?

So here's my explanation

There are uncountable people in the world

who love to write just like me

who have worse condition compare to me

who been through a lot of hard times more than me

and, 

throughout those uncountable number of people

I feel super small

like a dust

who might be remain unseen

but this dust

able to touch people around it

and reach their heart through my pieces of writing

When I was in my first semester

one of my old lecturer said

To be successful you need two elements;

energy and wisdom

When you are young and green like this

you have lot of energy but lack of wisdom

When you are getting old like me

you have much wisdom but you don't have much energy left

and one of my classmate ask,

so how to be successful in the young age?

he continued,

you can gain wisdom through experiences

you can listen to other people experiences

so it will make you become wiser

and will avoid the same mistakes from their past

When I listen to my lecturer advice

I start to think

maybe I could write a blog

and can share my experiences and thoughts to people around me

at that time

the thought of making a Talking Dust was born

:)

Advertiser is a hero

When I was in Junior High school

I wanna be a superhero

have an extraordinary ability

and save the world.

yeah, this is insane

Kindly blame all this fantasy movies.

However,

As I grow up

and I enter college

take advertising subject

learn about a lot of famous advertisers

I realized heyy. I can be HERO!

just like Yasmin Ahmad

Why she can become a superhero?


because,

She is the greatest Malaysian art director

She created a lot of TV advertisement

that touch people's heart

funeral advertisement

Hari raya advertisement 

Chinese new year advertisement

Tan Ho Ming in love

She try to influence Malaysia's society point of view

about love, family and unity

for me, she's the truly superhero

Thanks to Yasmin Ahmad.

She inspire me and a lot of Malaysia's society

at last,

when I get my degree

I still wanna be a SUPERHERO

superhero in a modern way just like Yasmin ;)

another boring post

He saw my eyes swollen

He knows I've been crying whole night

I saw his expression

He feels the pain I feel

He is not the one who broke my heart

He is the guy from every another boring post

He is pure kind

He still cares

But he can't do much

because he sees no more love left for him inside my eyes

I don't know why

He still cares

But one thing I know

I'm so much get over him

suck-est thing about a BOY

boys,

did you know the suckest thing about being you 

in my point of view is

when you haven't get me yet

you act like will be here always beside me

you will do any unimportant yet sweet things to make me fall for you

and

when you get my heart

you will not do the same thing like you did before

you become worse than the worst.

oh boy.

I sick of get through things like this

that's why

you see me so easy leaving you JUST LIKE THAT

cause I want to get my MAN

not a boy who still doesn't know about himself

ps: grow up boy

sweetest gift

daddy,

your heart must be very much aching now

mommy,

your must be sick of crying now

I'm sorry dad and mom

I wish if only I was there

if only I was your son

if only I am 10 years older than now

if only I'm not a student

if only I'm not depend on your money

if only I have everything that can make you proud of me

and

they will never look you down

they will never hurt you this much

they will find you cause they know

you have a tough son

but

now, you have three little daughters

who only can cry when you get hurt

who only can hold their anger in silent words 

who can't do much but cry

however

I promise

as the eldest

I will live very well

I will not do bad things

I will not dirt my body and mind

I will study harder than before

I will prove the world

that all your efforts raising me up until now

is not a waste at all

and 

this will be the sweetest gift for my parents

and the sweetest revenge for those who hurts you

PS: happy mama's day :)

Letter to family

Dear Dad, Mom, Yeyek and Finfin

Would you like to hold my hand..

let's live in a small village

where there's no electricity

Daddy..

When the main occupation is farming

In the morning mom makes simple breakfast before you go to the field

I help mom cook for you

you wear shabby clothes with short pant with high spirit heading to your workplace

Mommy..

you stay at house teaching me and sisters how to cook

sewing some clothes to sell it to the market

I will carry your clothes to the market and yeyek will help me sells the clothes

for the profit you make a simple yet our most favorite dinner

Ye, Fin, don't you want a peaceful life.

where our main concern is not become a rich successful woman

we can live our life so simple

we play hide and seek in front of house yard

mom chasing us with a rattan for being naughty and skip classes

dad takes us to his field and teach us how to planting rice

we play kite at the open sky

I tickle both of you so we can play chasing game in the grassland

mom pull my ear for teasing you and your lil sis

dad let you jump into his shoulder and hold your hand act like he's an aeroplane

we don't need any better education

as long as we can put smile on our parents face

we don't need million of money to spend

as long as there's a warmth in my mom and dad's hand

having a simple life

with limited money to spend

marrying a simple guy

become a farmer's wife

don't have any concern about being wealth

it's all I wanna be

when God still give me chance

to have the same family

when I die and return back as a new human

I prefer to be a poor family

but live in a very happy and warm heart